I remember reading the “Mind Hacking: How to Change Your Mind for Good in 21 Days” and finishing it! The finishing part is important because I rarely finish books but this one was so good and insightful, I read it all! What stuck with me after reading it was the loops that run in our brain and without intersecting the loop, we just keep having the same thoughs, same mindset and same outcomes!
Yesterday I noticed a loop that I have never noticed in myself before. Let me set the stage – I am feeling down on myself, I know everything is great and I am happy with my life but I am irritable and not wanting to engage with anyone. I am taking things personally and just in a crappy mood. The thought pattern is “I just have to keep working on it until it’s done”. And that’s when I intersect the mind loop with a question “Why and I doing this?”. It’s late, I’m tired, I’d rather be doing something else, why am I “punishing” myself by working so late.
Self-realization comes – the reason I am working myself so hard is because if I don’t have anything to show for my work – external things – income, recognition etc. – I am not worthy! Tears come streaming in. “Do I love myself?” I ask. The answer is loud and clear “Not unless you have something to show for yourself”. More tears. Why am I so hard on myself? I would never say this to my child or to my husband or to a friend. I would raise them up and say that they are worthy just because they are themselves. But I don’t have the same set of rules for myself. I am hard on myself. Keep myself to a very high standard. And find it hard to love myself if I am not doing “big things”.
Self-acceptance and unconditional self-love! Those are the missing links in the loop! Time to get unstuck! I grab my Chakra deck and pull a card – “Acceptance” is what it says. I read more and get prompted to reflect on “embracing imperfection” “NEW ways of seeing yourself”, “feeling incomplete”, “selling yourself short”. Am I assessing myself accurately? Or am I distorting my reality in a self-defeating way? Can I simply accept myself?
A nice Aroma Freedom Technique session with my favorite oils and I have some great memories to release and journal about and a brand new minset and affirmation! Ready to move into my new minset and get out of the loop I was stuck in!